Don't tell me 1/2 of the sToRy

Maybe I can be a bit harsh when I respond to my girls I would admit that but there are reasons why.... Check it out

My girls either think I am naive or overbearing I cannot call it but at times it gets to me. I have a gf who thinks I don't know what is going on in her life and hey maybe I need to know and maybe I don't but I am not stupid and I don't like lies. So my girl got something going on and she is not telling me the complete story. Honestly I have two friends doing this to me. I think its because they think I am judgemental but I am not; I give advice and I get results that's all.

So anyway one gf is telling me bits and pieces of what is going on with her personal life but then expects me to be supportive???? How can I be if I can't call the situation?

My other friend is leaving the country with another man she met in Jamaica. Maybe I should breakdown the story some more...

Sister girl went to Jamaica and met some guy and they had a hot and heavy week; we all know this rule "what happens in Jamaica stays in Jamaica!" well it was that sort of thing. Damn I am thinking I NEED TO GO TO JAMAICA! Anyway ....

The guy was beautiful compared to her fat nasty husband laying at home waiting for her return. She sorta got dick whipped (it was soooo good she could not think straight! you know what I mean don't you be naive lol) So she made plans to stay and I looked at the phone like she was out of he mind but I let it be. She returned and her husband flowered her with gifts and all the good stuff because he missed her so much. But then she surprised him with a last minute trip to Jamaica two months later and was not inviting him along. Now I know you would like to know the rest but shit she never told me! lol

All I know is a year later she is pregnant and blowing up my cell talking about the dude in Jamaica played her, and all this other nonsense and she wanted to have dinner with me so we can have a girls night out being that I had just broken up with my ex at the time! I mean she intentionally left me out the loop and now wanted support bit** PLEASE

And now to my crazy ass buddy who has something scandalous going on that she is not tellllingggg. The worst part is she told me half the story then got me involved in some mess but yall no miss DIVA is not going for that so I SHUT IT DOWN! so when the shi* hits the fan don't get at me! Like my man Kanye says "when it all falls down mannnnn" don't call me!

I need better friends or at least a trip to Jamaica!

Later yall

Z.

I got a case of CDD (Crazy Day Diva)

So today was more then enough for a DIVA, from talkative men on my way to work, crabby assistants, thought provoking interns, sealing a deal that a DIVA has been waiting for, lots and lots of hay, mass transit, a sparkling fashion show and overactive kids to top off my night!

So pull up a seat; or rather can I lay on your sofa and tell you about my day? I have about a hour right???

So I start my day as a DIVA head in the air ready to take on the world I pull out my Grant Writing for Dummies book and get started. But before I had a chance to put my earplugs in my ear this asian man starts talking so loud on his cell about mergers and only thing I was thinking was "Not right now please Lord!" It's 7 am in the morning come on now even I take a break from the madness... well not really but we are talking about him here! So I decide to put the book away and listen attentively.

As I get to work I look through all the things that should be done that I have not even completed and decide to probe my assistant who likes to piss me off by giving me one word answers in which I despise, but I guess that is her payback. I asked her to "do" a few things for me and after a week no progress so as a type a personality that I am I decided to "do" it all myself and have such a surprise for miss unsuspecting! But I will leave that up to the imagination. I like to complain yes but I like RESULTS and not when you think you want to give them to me. But I got it under control :-) She loves my crazy OCD ass!

I have a few interns that write for my newsblog and I love how creative they are and how they give me ideas for articles of my own because you know WE ARE ALL WRITERS AT HEART! I hired a new intern and she is a DIVA in training (trust me!) When I met her she amazed me with her Japanese drawings because you all should know I love Japanese culture. And the real reason she was hired was her skill for networking; at just 17 years old she handed me a business card!!!!!!!! That is a business mogul after my own heart. I love to see girls empowered to things above what they were labeled to do. AMAZING

Now I want to show you how grateful a bitchy, obsessive DIVA can be by saying in a few lines or less how happy I am that we sealed the penthouse deal for The Pink Polka Dot Org's Annual Career Conference! Thanks

Ok ok I lied! I have to talk all about it lol
I went to the venue space and was introduced to so many people it was great and they were very very kind and welcoming. This one designer (gorgeous by the way) Brian Dargon had a set up that required hay (yes hay for horses) his clothing line was inspired by downsouth barnyards or something to that effect and he wanted to create or rather he did create an actual barnyard with beautiful (again) BEAUTIFUL male models whew... anyway the owner of the space told me the funniest story of how pounds and pounds of hay arrived at the buildings doorstep and how he told the designer that all that HAY was not entering his building!!! LOL so the owner said he called the local police and donated all the hay to the lovely horses of NYC! CLASSIC ;-(

For blogging purposes I hate hate HATe NYC's Mass transit system .... ok DIVA count form 10

I have the best network any DIVA can ask for as my good friend Preston invited me to a fashion show in the city. So I brainstormed and decided to bring along some up and coming fashionista's from my org so that they can see for themselves how fab they are. They truly enjoyed walking around in a lux penthouse with designers and being asked questions and taking flicks FLICKS! One up and coming designer Passion (what a great name for this fashion DIVA, her real name by the way) got a chance to talk to Allison Jacobs a very beautiful designer who is soon to open her showroom in the city! Remember we all need REAL AND VISABLE GOALS AND ANYTHING IS possible!

Then finally and thank God the least my overactive girls became restless and hungry so we ate and jumped on the train. But that was not it they had to piss me off by acting like ducks on the train and obnoxiously saying QUACK every 10 seconds I wanted to SCREAM.... SO I DID

"Shut the hell up you spolied DIVAS!!!!" LOL

Life is GOOD

Z.

My period made me do it!

Ok I shouldn't tell you all this but I had a true bitch fest today. I was going through these wild emotions and could not figure out why. OK everyone gets it I am single and loving it right???

Right.

But today my thoughts was on high; I wanted to feel love today or some type of stimulating convo with someone older than 8!

I found myself texting ALL THE WRONG PEOPLE just to get this hump off my back but that DID not work. Then to top that off my younger sister was like Zanade do you think you will be single forever? (she asks me that while trying to secretly hide a hickey someone gave her BUT I WILL GET TO THAT LATER)

And I answered "SO!!!" because today I didn't want to be single. Ms. Manifesta says we (single women) often get those days where we don't want one night stands or booty call friends or gay buddies we just want a man A MAN damn it! Well today was it. I started to reflect on old relationships and began the cry me a river shit.

Then my trip to the bathroom made me realize why I had been acting crazy all morning... Little miss totally unexpected popped up! I started to breathe and laugh uncontrollably because I thought I was about to break the code and start looking for a man but oh no my home girl P got a sister's back!

Thanks P

I knew you were good for something LOL

Today was a crazy day :-)

Disgusted Diva

I had a whirlwind weekend everyone! But I want to highlight or after you read the subject matter you may want to call this low light. I encountered this woman or whatever you want to call her while exiting the train station in the city. This woman was rather anxious to direct me down the block after she noticed me staring at my phone fiddling with directions. "Where ya going?" the eager woman says and I simply brush her off like any REAL DIVA would. But she asks again "Where are you headed pretty lady?" so I entertain her for the moment and say I am looking for 37Th and 8Th and she flips her knapsack around her waist and says "Follow me!" so with conviction in my voice I say "OK".

Why struggle with HopStop?

I didn't really bother to look at her but then she began running her mouth about being homeless and this (directing traffic) being her profession. So I instantly became interested in her. I asked her why was she homeless and why didn't she choose to sleep in a shelter and she told me she would rather be free to do her drugs than be restricted by shelter staff to what time she had to be home. I mean in a way I understood because who wants to be TOLD what to do? But I didn't understand why she let drugs rule her being. I explained to her she is letting the drugs tell her what to do and she stared at me and whispered not a word.

What shocked me is that miss independent tried to play the con artist role on me by saying she was pregnant and needed food. So I could have been the gullible social entrepreneur but oh HELL NO I am not!!! I am the most FABULOUS SOCIAL ENTREPRENEUR DIVA around! Which means I take no shit from anyone. You didn't meet a nice tree hugger who cares about everyone and gives all she has to the needy. I uplift and serve and SHOP. I am not one to be used. So I told her that is not a very good hustle you have going on and she looked puzzled.

So as I approached my block I told her to get her life in order stop being weak and join a drug rehab and get into a shelter because at this rate she is looking to be killed! It is so true like someone may look at her as less than nothing as I first did and they may not care about her babies and drugs and traffic position.

What disgusted me the most was that she was a sister! She was down and out and didn't care. Drugs was more important and I feel her because sometimes LATTES are more important than my next meal but I would never go to that extreme. How do some people get to that point? Why do you not value who you are and your life?

Miss Independent I know you would probably never read this blog but to one DIVA to another person on the grind KEEP YOUR HEAD UP PLAY IT SAFE AND PLEASE VALUE WHO YOU ARE! NOT IN MEASURE OF DRUGS OR YOUR STAND AT BEING INDEPENDENT BUT BECAUSE YOU ARE SPECIAL YOU ARE NOT LESS THAN NOTHING!

Damn what a blog..........

I guess the "good lover" was not all that "good" after all LOL

I stay single for a reason... My girlfriend for some insane reason decided to pursue a man that has been giving her G (game) for over three months. Now I say this because there were some rumors years ago that this certain G Man was terrible in bed. Now I don't know about you but I take notice when I hear stuff like that and choose not to find out if the rumor is true or not. But she wanted to know; considering the attention he was giving her lately G G G!!!!

She reported back that all that was said WAS true so she pretty much wasted her energy on G Man and I am laughing my ass off (had to spell it out LOL)

It is wild because she doesn't understand how a man so cute could be so well... bland in bed. Hey I told her it happens to the best of us and she should try her best to forget it all!!! Well with me sending her voice messages laughing uncontrollably that may be hard to do but that shit is funny!!

But what is even worse she didn't tell him he was trash! Now a real DIVA knows she has to tell him that immediately after the bad romp. So now he is all in her face and apparently thinks he did a job well done when it was really a thumbs down lol

Diva's!!! Nip bad sex in the bud NOW don't wait LOL

Sorry Crissy this was too good not to post

Love ya!

I done heard it all!

So back to my bitterness LOL

I was at an event and me being me of course five men wanted my attention and I amused myself watching them feign over me. But what shocked me the most was what one told me... ok wait...I know that most of what I write is published and many eyes can see and many lips can talk so I will leave names out!

This gentleman lets call him was the nicest guy I have ever met at a party. He didn't crowd me or rub his umm ... parts on me so I was feeling it. But a DIVA is always thinking ahead so I knew there was something WRONG somewhere! AND I WAS CORRECT

I noticed weird patterns and began to drift away from him because I was like oh hell no not again LOL He started to say he had obsessions and shit I am like you got to be kidding me! Like the stuff he was saying was very uncommon and now I wish I hadn't handed him my business card!!! Damn!

See why I say a DIVA is always going to be alone? Too many weirdo's out here!

Ok we have a soft side

A DIVA is not always a mean girl unwilling to let anyone in her heart; she is a caring friend to a select few. That brings me to this blog, a friend of mines is going through a tough time and an even tougher pregnancy and her girls are doing all they can to be there for her.

As always a man does everything possible to make situations strange; from being unloving to flat out ignoring you and depending on your current state of mind it can effect you. I am sure this is the reason my friend is down and it makes me sick!

I recently found out that she may be delivering her child alone!!! I could not freaking imagine that! So my girls and I have decided to be there for her just like the Divine Sisters we are! LOL

We are doing our share to make this a smooth transaction for her...

Friends are very important no matter what status of DIVA you are. Personally I don't need them because they cause trouble but when you find some that uplift you YOU MUST stick with them.

I am on my way to purchase a boa for the new addition!!!!

Later