My period made me do it!

Ok I shouldn't tell you all this but I had a true bitch fest today. I was going through these wild emotions and could not figure out why. OK everyone gets it I am single and loving it right???

Right.

But today my thoughts was on high; I wanted to feel love today or some type of stimulating convo with someone older than 8!

I found myself texting ALL THE WRONG PEOPLE just to get this hump off my back but that DID not work. Then to top that off my younger sister was like Zanade do you think you will be single forever? (she asks me that while trying to secretly hide a hickey someone gave her BUT I WILL GET TO THAT LATER)

And I answered "SO!!!" because today I didn't want to be single. Ms. Manifesta says we (single women) often get those days where we don't want one night stands or booty call friends or gay buddies we just want a man A MAN damn it! Well today was it. I started to reflect on old relationships and began the cry me a river shit.

Then my trip to the bathroom made me realize why I had been acting crazy all morning... Little miss totally unexpected popped up! I started to breathe and laugh uncontrollably because I thought I was about to break the code and start looking for a man but oh no my home girl P got a sister's back!

Thanks P

I knew you were good for something LOL

Today was a crazy day :-)

Disgusted Diva

I had a whirlwind weekend everyone! But I want to highlight or after you read the subject matter you may want to call this low light. I encountered this woman or whatever you want to call her while exiting the train station in the city. This woman was rather anxious to direct me down the block after she noticed me staring at my phone fiddling with directions. "Where ya going?" the eager woman says and I simply brush her off like any REAL DIVA would. But she asks again "Where are you headed pretty lady?" so I entertain her for the moment and say I am looking for 37Th and 8Th and she flips her knapsack around her waist and says "Follow me!" so with conviction in my voice I say "OK".

Why struggle with HopStop?

I didn't really bother to look at her but then she began running her mouth about being homeless and this (directing traffic) being her profession. So I instantly became interested in her. I asked her why was she homeless and why didn't she choose to sleep in a shelter and she told me she would rather be free to do her drugs than be restricted by shelter staff to what time she had to be home. I mean in a way I understood because who wants to be TOLD what to do? But I didn't understand why she let drugs rule her being. I explained to her she is letting the drugs tell her what to do and she stared at me and whispered not a word.

What shocked me is that miss independent tried to play the con artist role on me by saying she was pregnant and needed food. So I could have been the gullible social entrepreneur but oh HELL NO I am not!!! I am the most FABULOUS SOCIAL ENTREPRENEUR DIVA around! Which means I take no shit from anyone. You didn't meet a nice tree hugger who cares about everyone and gives all she has to the needy. I uplift and serve and SHOP. I am not one to be used. So I told her that is not a very good hustle you have going on and she looked puzzled.

So as I approached my block I told her to get her life in order stop being weak and join a drug rehab and get into a shelter because at this rate she is looking to be killed! It is so true like someone may look at her as less than nothing as I first did and they may not care about her babies and drugs and traffic position.

What disgusted me the most was that she was a sister! She was down and out and didn't care. Drugs was more important and I feel her because sometimes LATTES are more important than my next meal but I would never go to that extreme. How do some people get to that point? Why do you not value who you are and your life?

Miss Independent I know you would probably never read this blog but to one DIVA to another person on the grind KEEP YOUR HEAD UP PLAY IT SAFE AND PLEASE VALUE WHO YOU ARE! NOT IN MEASURE OF DRUGS OR YOUR STAND AT BEING INDEPENDENT BUT BECAUSE YOU ARE SPECIAL YOU ARE NOT LESS THAN NOTHING!

Damn what a blog..........

I guess the "good lover" was not all that "good" after all LOL

I stay single for a reason... My girlfriend for some insane reason decided to pursue a man that has been giving her G (game) for over three months. Now I say this because there were some rumors years ago that this certain G Man was terrible in bed. Now I don't know about you but I take notice when I hear stuff like that and choose not to find out if the rumor is true or not. But she wanted to know; considering the attention he was giving her lately G G G!!!!

She reported back that all that was said WAS true so she pretty much wasted her energy on G Man and I am laughing my ass off (had to spell it out LOL)

It is wild because she doesn't understand how a man so cute could be so well... bland in bed. Hey I told her it happens to the best of us and she should try her best to forget it all!!! Well with me sending her voice messages laughing uncontrollably that may be hard to do but that shit is funny!!

But what is even worse she didn't tell him he was trash! Now a real DIVA knows she has to tell him that immediately after the bad romp. So now he is all in her face and apparently thinks he did a job well done when it was really a thumbs down lol

Diva's!!! Nip bad sex in the bud NOW don't wait LOL

Sorry Crissy this was too good not to post

Love ya!

I done heard it all!

So back to my bitterness LOL

I was at an event and me being me of course five men wanted my attention and I amused myself watching them feign over me. But what shocked me the most was what one told me... ok wait...I know that most of what I write is published and many eyes can see and many lips can talk so I will leave names out!

This gentleman lets call him was the nicest guy I have ever met at a party. He didn't crowd me or rub his umm ... parts on me so I was feeling it. But a DIVA is always thinking ahead so I knew there was something WRONG somewhere! AND I WAS CORRECT

I noticed weird patterns and began to drift away from him because I was like oh hell no not again LOL He started to say he had obsessions and shit I am like you got to be kidding me! Like the stuff he was saying was very uncommon and now I wish I hadn't handed him my business card!!! Damn!

See why I say a DIVA is always going to be alone? Too many weirdo's out here!

Ok we have a soft side

A DIVA is not always a mean girl unwilling to let anyone in her heart; she is a caring friend to a select few. That brings me to this blog, a friend of mines is going through a tough time and an even tougher pregnancy and her girls are doing all they can to be there for her.

As always a man does everything possible to make situations strange; from being unloving to flat out ignoring you and depending on your current state of mind it can effect you. I am sure this is the reason my friend is down and it makes me sick!

I recently found out that she may be delivering her child alone!!! I could not freaking imagine that! So my girls and I have decided to be there for her just like the Divine Sisters we are! LOL

We are doing our share to make this a smooth transaction for her...

Friends are very important no matter what status of DIVA you are. Personally I don't need them because they cause trouble but when you find some that uplift you YOU MUST stick with them.

I am on my way to purchase a boa for the new addition!!!!

Later

The ants come marching one by one Hoorah!

What happens when a DIVA declares her single woman-hood? The ants come marching in; they are everywhere. Maybe I should link them to my blog DIVASAURUS, because sweetheart I am not interested. In the past week I enjoyed/not enjoyed conversations with uninteresting opposite sex members. The ones I enjoyed were solely because the outlandish comments a few of them made gave me laughs for days! And the remainder were just totally BORING.

1) I am not impressed by the fact that you drive a car, and the fact that you need to say it over and over. WHY???

a)I have my own

b)You are spending your money to pay the note and therefore have no money to spend on me, or build with me or your struggling..

c)Your shallow


2) Do you truly want me to believe that I can trust you?

a)It never fails that everyday I get a new tale of a woman fighting with her man over b.s whether that bad him lying, cheating, lack of motivation, baby mama drama etc,, it is always something. So I say show me something new! Be sincere, stop the games and be true state what the hell you want!

3) It's way too soon to tell me all the bad things your ex did! Like we just met or rather you keep on following me.

4) Yes my hair is real and if it was not why the hell would that matter?

Listen honey... I can go on for days about the stupid encounters I have with men. See when this DIVA was attached not many men chased me down; I mean I had my share but not like it is now. All the wrong ones are heading my way and what am I to do?

So I start shutting them down easy... I won't disclose how (a DIVA has to save some secrets!) but I have to slowly reject them.

I really want to be alone for the time being; men cause trouble and my agenda does not include trouble... unless it has a latte in the plans and my personal trainer screaming at me because of the cal count!!!!

Single and damn happy!

I can recall wanting love or wanting a partner but that dream is no more. Ever since I embraced what a DIVASAURUS is by my own definition I determined I want to be single. I am reading this wonderful called The Single Girl's Manifesta and the writer hits everything right on target. She points out the things single women can do that married or attached woman cannot and looking through the list I wanted to laugh because I know too many women dealing with b.s from their lover.

I look at life a bit differently now, I can go home and light a candle and don't have to answer to anyone. How great does it feel to read a book at 2 in the morning and not have to hear an annoying man scream "Honey when are you going to bed?"

In my past relationships I had to hear that all the time and it was draining. It was always something, either I was never home or stayed up too late. Yeah everyone wants to cuddle up or go to a movie together but be for real you can have a black book full of numbers and dial up when necessary right?

If you don't know that love is a chemical imbalance then read my previous blog.

So those of you looking for the attachment ... GO ON I don't want him at all. It is certainly going to take a lot to lock this down...

The author of the book gives you list of things to do when "lonely time nears" which is good, but honestly I am so drained by days end all I want to do is fall asleep. So maybe in my dreams I want to be swept away by Prince Chariming but in reality I'M GOOD!